Blame me.

Im sorry.
Im not good enough to be your friend.
Im not supportive enough.
I neglected you because of stupid reasons and excuses.
Where I should there with you, and be with them to back you up.
Useless I am.
Blame me, its my bad.

Im sorry.
Mungkin ak dapat tunaikan janji kat korang.
Mungkin tak dapat ke Subang cuti ni.
Exams schedule. The financial crisis.
It shouldnt be another of my excuses. I know.
I'm still trying to find the time.
But if I failed, it solely my fault.

Im sorry.
I couldnt be there for you.
You've done alot for me.
Sacrificed your time, energy and money.
Sorry im such a bad friend.

Allah has blessed me with the bestest of friends. Very good friends.
Too good to be true. But I failed. To pleased each and everyone of them.
I dont want to have any regrets.
Seriously I love each and everyone. Sangat.

IM SORRY :(

ps: This post was meant for awak, korang and you. Sila tahu.

"Forgiveness means letting go of the past."

2days Old :)

Post yang dah basi. Lame sangat diperam since last week.

It was supposed to be post on 010210.

Presenting, MUHAMMAD ADAM AFIF.

He was only 2DAYS old time neh.

Her mom chose Adam sebab dia cakap Adam tuh bunyik mcm hensem je. Haha boleh lar.

Lucky Adam. Her mom is like the bestest most sporting lecturer ever okayh.

Pn, Zuriani, Congratsss and selamat berpantang!

Kak Long :p

Afrina

Cubaan pertama Adam minum susu dgn botoi

Abang Ngah

Abang Long

*Im currently very madly homesick. I miss my family in Jb and my friends in Subang.

Tak sangka berjaya tak balik mane-mane for almost 2mnths. Rekod di situ!

Weekends are like damn bosan and torturing when u dont have any money. Demmit.

Cuti cepatlah datang. Im coming back in less than a week hooooray! :D

"Truly great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget"

1000 words.

These people made it happened. Thanks.

Moreeee pictures! :D

From Kuantan with ♥

I officially love Kuantan!

I had one of the best birthday celebration yesterday.

Pictures to be uploaded very soon. Good pictures, very candid sebab ade photographer tak bertauliah yang amek gune dslr.

Maliq was the 1st to wish me (dia yg suruh tulis) tho dia call jam 1130. But takpelah. Orang bekerja kena tido awal kan.

Tepat 00:00 : Ayah, Ibu called and sang happy birthday anakku.

Then the whole room gelap tgk2 budak2 neh bawak cake with candles plg comel penah dapat. Awww.

Thanks for all the birthday wishes- sgt terharu sanggup msg and call me. Another awww.

Faiz, Syam, Juan, Alynn, Cacha, Pija, Mimi, Shera, Aliah, Darwin, Daus, Ikhlas, Pn.Zue, Hery, Shahrilen, Ras Adila, Aliahkama, Ijat, Ani, Umar, Niksu, Amirul Ashraf, Kak Yana, Along, Yat, Miera, Lynn, Akmal Hakim, En. Hamdan, Azhanni.

And thanks jugak to all those who posted your wishes on Fb.

My roomates gave me a hell of surprise party. With Maggie utk 11 orang, Cekedis and air oren busuk. Yes kena simbah dgn air oren peram seminggu! Dah agak siod kalau tak nape korang malas sgt basuh jag tuh. And it smells horrible. Macam buah bacang tapi lagi busuk masam!

Kena torture basuh pinggan segala semua. But it was fun. Gelak jerit lari gelak gelak!

Next morning, i was greeted with a Birthday songs and wishes from my classmates and senior classes. Thank u! Then i was called to the main office, where my beloved lecturer Pn.Zue prepared for me nasi kerabu. Aww thank u lagi! Unexpected act by one of my favs lecturer, when he started to play a birthday song using piano from his iphone. Thank u thank u!

Later that evening, Ariff pulak jadik pelakon utama. Long story short.

He took me pusing2 lame gile around Kuantan and suddenly cakap lapar nak makan nasi which is sedikit tiba2 di situ. Dan tetiba bawak gi Padi padahal i kept asking him nak pegi mane dia tak cakap. Ergh. Sumpah terkejut terharu sebak masuk2 kedai tgk 1 table penuh dgn kawan2 (those yg tak balik 4 wkends).

I KNOW U GUYS ARE HAVING FINANCIAL CRISIS DUE TO PTPTN BUT STILL KORANG MASIH RELA NAK BELANJA AND CELEBRATE AKU.

Especially Cik Irma Shafina Ibrahim & her beloved En.Hafiz.

Thank You.

I cant wait for all the pictures. Cepatlah Monday! Cepatlah dapat card reader!

BIG THANK YOU SEMUAORANG! U GUYS MADE ME EXTREMELY HAPPY ON 29TH 2010!

♥♥

Harus letak neh. And maaflah video tak memuaskan lnsg. Excited kot.

En.Hamdan, thank you. Heeee :)

(i know u'll be reading this sooner or later kan)

(ps: i dont know why there's no sound at all. Hadoi sowry)

Age is an issue of mind over matter. If you don't mind, it doesn't matter.

Pictureless.

Chuak tak kalau its ur birthday tmrw,
And ur rumates are acting verrrry suspicious.
And semua simpan air yang berbau.
If secawan,i can understand. But 1 jug, apa ceritaaaaaa?

I have people asking me this question,
"asal kau excited sgt birthday? ak tak penah kesah pon"
Well, apparently because ive been brought up in Subang.
With that kind of family, and that circle of friends.
Who would never failed to make my birthday each year a memorable one.
Sehari je pon, u wanna have fun and feel like it's the day that people have to listen to you.
Simply because, its your birthday.
Thanks Ayah, Along and Nina for the early gift :))

Ask yourself, do you give impacts on other peoples life?
Jangan tanya apa orang dah beri pada kita,tanya diri kita apa kita dah beri pada orang.

Life has been almost perfect. Alhamdulillah :)

http://ffffound.com. Typography. Addictive sekali!

Post wajib.

Frankly, my past few weeks had been such a rollercoaster. A hell ride.

I'm having a badly serious conflict and drama. It does not only involves classmates, but also lecturers and those big names in admin.

Alhamdulillah. Dah settle. I guess so.

It may sound bullshit but trust me, honesty does pay.

Truth hurts but once u've let it out of your chest u'll feel so dammmm relieved.

And now, im back on track. Smiling :)

29th January 2010.

21 on 2010.

Seriously i have nothing to ask.
Takde benda yang betol-betol nak.
Okayh tipulah kalau tetiba ada orang nak bagi ni,

sekeping pon da cukup sangat!

and i said, No.

Itu adalah menolak rezeki ye namanye. Tak baik membazir.

But then benda paling nak on this exact date is u guys.

My family. and friends.

SUBANG FRIENDS ESPECIALLY.

You guys know how much i hate changes.

And moving permanently to JB is a big change that i have to go through.

Im missing each of u like damm much, only Allah knows how bad.

Nak mintak korang datang Kuantan is like impossible kot since Maliq is currently sedang ojt, Alia is in Melaka, Shera's in Perak, Annis is back in UK, Syam belum cuti, Nina is going for holiday in Sabah, Pija is in Shah Alam. Okay malas da nak tulis ape semua tgh buat.

Im turning 21. Why so soon?

Temerloh, Pahang.

Bandar ikan patin.

Sebut saje ikan patin, orang sume akan teringat Temerloh.

Well, for those yang tawu larh.

As for me, this is the 1st time im here.

The only advantages studying faaar away from home, is this.

TRAVEL. MELANCONG.

With very limited cost i'd say.

So far, i've been to Perlis, Kedah, Terengganu, Kemaman, Pekan semua sebab one of my rumates is orang sane. Lucky me i guess.

Temerloh sangat tenang. Kehidupan orang biase-biase.

Tak macam Kuantan, Jb apetah lagi Subang.

3days 2nites

Naik motor ronda pekan Temerloh - done!

Tengok ikan patin live - done!

Bertanya ilmu agama & hidup pada Haji Salleh - done!

Ronda Pekan Sari yang femes - done!

Jalan rumah Fatimah -done!

Kenal makanan pelik2 - done!

Makan makan & makan - done!

Ikan patin tempoyak - tak sanggup! heee.

Inilah Sakinah. Selalu dia tak bawak motor gaya gini. Action je tuh.

Haruslah letak gambar berhelmet banyak2 sebab jakun 1st time naik motor dibonceng secara halal dan pakai helmet! Jalan-jalan kat pekan, and masuk kedai bawak helmet siod. Kereta hanya dipandu waktu malam sebab bahaya anak-anak dara berkeliaran naik motor kang orang ingat minah Rempsss. Dan diketawakan orang sebab amek gambar pakai helemt sambil membonceng adalah rutin selama 3hari di sana. Ade aku kesah?

It was fun staying over at your house Sakinah. Thanks :)

"A good laugh and a long sleep are the best cures in the doctor's book."

Miracle!

This newly wed women, my sister whom i called Along.

She curse alot e.g. sial, bodoh, mampos.

She now cooks for her husband and for her in laws family on weekends.

She is now addressed as Puan Nur Badriah.

Because she is now happily married to my bro in law, Hadi Asyraf.

And they seem to enjoy their current life so much. Goooood :)

Okayyyy!

I just have to let this news out.

Takleh simpan.

Im like hell excited since she said she's been having the symptoms.

Late periods, morning sickness.

Like hello isn't it obvious?

Its 4 WEEKS! She's now a happily pregnant women! Tho she keeps vomiting like every minutes.

Im gonna be an aunty soooooon! Bangga gile! Keturunan Borhanuddin subur. Hahaha.

Gile lah dah kira. Doctor kate due Sept. Dapat anak sedara time2 Raya. Wahhhhh!

:)

Cube nak carik gambar of 4weeks of pregnancy, tapi tak dapat. But i found this instead.

"At this point in your pregnancy, your growing baby is very small and is about 1 mm in length. One mm is about half of the size of a typed letter O"

"At this stage, your baby’s brain, spinal cord, heart and other organs begin to form. Your baby is still only a tiny fraction of an inch long."

I cant stop smiling :) :)

Rasa Baru.

Enough of the emosi post. PMS is sooo over!

Haha walaupun emosi eh jealousy masih sekarang, sebab rindhu melampau2 kat Subang dan orang2nya (especially gedik-gedik dalam gambar di atas) tapi tinggal dulu. Nanti2 baru layan.

Class dah bermula 3weeks. That means im currently in Kuantan.

So far, kuantan has been treating me very well.

People here are fine. Masih tiada drama besar-besaran.

I guess that im getting used to the idea that, they are different.

Subang frens are different in their own way. And so do Kuantan frens.

Terima Seadanya. Kena biasakan diri gune pakai ayat ni.

Because i realized now that i have variety of friends. Err mcm salah je ayat.

Macam-macam perangai, karakter, emosi, rasa, favorites.

Accept people for who they are. To gain respect, u need to respect others first.

Kecuali lah kalau kau memang tak suke dia, and tak rugi pon kalau kau tak layan perangai dia sebab buat buang mase je kan. Itu terkecuali.

These people are my OLD friends.

And i know few of my new friends who'll end up being my OLD friends.

Alhamdulillah im surrounded by greatpeople :)

It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them. They're people who accept you tho they know about your past and bad habits. Even though after you've hurt them, neglect them. These people are still and forever will be my treasure.

betol-betol pms

emolah sumeorg nak emo.

ni memang minggu emo. silakan.

join the group.

cakap jujur sakit, cakap belakang salah.

DIAM.

3hari terakhir.

sangat tak bole blah.

i was bloghopping. past few days.

tak tawu lah ak dengki ke tak puas hati or ape.

yg penting, rimas lemas tgk blog yang penuh dgn advert kiri kanan atas bawah.

events here and there.

getting money for this and that (okayh neh dengki)

tolonglah.

rindhu mase dulu2 yang blogspot neh aman.

sebelum nuffnaaaang active. bosanlah. nak bace real post, bukan post mengiklankan barang because that's what nuffnaaaaaang ask you to do.

and, 1 reminder.

orang kalau betol2 baik, dia tak akan cakap dia baik.

dia buat baik diam2. sedekah tuh kalau boleh tgn kanan beri, tgn kiri tak tahu.

dan kalau dah bagi or buat ape2 takyah nak ungkit2 boleh?

kate ikhlas. kate demi kawan.

ak pon tak baik sgt lah nak nasihat ke ape.

opinion ikhlas je neh.

kalau kau nak berubah ke ape, simpan sorang2 boleh?

diam2. kalau kau yeye2 patu last2 tak jadik, malu kot kan.

tolonglah jangan hidup dalam ilusi, fantasi.

get a life people! grow up!

aku rasa aku stress. dah okay. tapi membaca blog orang ramai buat aku stress balik. aiyohhhh.

esoklah citer pasal pindah and stuff.

satu hari dalam seminggu yang tinggal.

and soo, after few days of hibernating (yakni tido melebihi jam manusia biasa-12jam sehari)

i still havent start packing!

sebab my mom said :

"kalau kita pack sume neh, ape org tuh nk buat? nnt takde keja lah? okay tayah pack"

hmm sebenarnye, bank negara telah melantik freight company utk kemas and pack brg until berjaya dipindahkan ke Jb. dats why taktau nk pack ape skrg, bukan malas yeee :)

Anywaaaaaay, i met Leen just now. Tnapa kesah nak kemane.

Yes, saye peneman setia kawan2 ;)

Soooo i woke up damn early! 9am teman dia gi Celcom Centre pasal masalah fraud dealer Celcom.

Ade this 1 time, ade promoter kasik ktorg simcard Celcom. We were rushing time tuh and tak kesah sgt just amek je, then he said isi borang tulis name and ic num.

We didnt know that the simpack was a postpaid sim. Mamat tuh lnsg tak ckp pape, he just said, FREE. Few days later i got this call from Celcom centre asking nak gune ke tak num tuh and i said no. I thought it was over.

Poor Leen sbb Celcom tak call dia lnsg but bills keep coming for the past 7months.

Monthly charge is RM50, Admin RM3 and bla bla almost RM7osumthing every month.

Bile pegi Celcom Centre tuh kena bambu dgn akak tuh marah ckp we should have read the T&C before amek the simpack wtf. Tak membantu. Omg Celcom Centre Shah Alam tak bagus service!

Current bill yang perlu dibayar is RM408sumthing. Gileee? paying for something that u didnt even use?! Then akak tuh ckp if tanak byr kena buat bla bla macam2 okeh.

Police report, akuan sumpah, surat rayuan, ic birth cert. Omg leceh!

Tambah leceh bile keta kena saman Mpsj sbb double park. Great! Padahal mmg kejap gile kat kedai beli roti je. Saman Rm80!

Ktorg gi terus to Mpsj sbb ingat byr awal dpt murah, kena Rm4o! Masih mahal!

Service kat Mpsj office was waaaaaaay lousy! Slow! Lembab badak!

Bazir 2jam just beratur menunggu untuk bayar kompaun sengal.

Satu hari yang penuh kesakitan ketidakpuasan hati dan sedikit teruja. Abang Mpsj kacak hot gile gedang! Hahah.

And did u know? Subang akan ade Lrt sendiri?

It's called LRT Extension Line- Kelana Jaya Line

LRT dalam Subang Jay itself!

Routes dia antaranya :

-Stesen Ktm Subang Jaya (Build over)

-SS15 (opposite Pelita) {DEKAT GILE DGN RUMAH! :)]

-SS18

-USJ 7, USJ 14, USJ 21

-Putra Heights

How cool is that? Now budak sekola dari 15 pegi sekola naek LRT je, how cool is that?

And bole travel gi Usj naik LRT! Mudah!

Subang Jaya mmg tempat paling best. Sayangnyeee nak pindah da. Hmmm :(

Just so u know, pembinaan LRT dapat BANYAK bantahan sadly.

Pegilah Mpsj and tgk route plan yourself adn jgn lupe comment!!

Hidup Subang Jaya! Heeeee :)

Dreams are true while they last, and do we not live in dreams?

16th.

i didn't sleep last night.

i had a talk. loooong talk. with juniorSyaffiq. serious matter, to clear things up.

guess now we are okay. i dont hold any grudge on him and i dont want him to be miserably guilty over what happen. we both made mistakes, and we learnt a lesson.

"dia tak semestinya rasa ape yang kau rasa. perasaan manusia berubah-ubah"

and bcause of that, i woke up late! Maliq and Azzy da tunggu kat luar baru bangun like wtf!

Nasib gi fetch Pija dulu and sempat! Luckily jenis cepat siap. haha.

and we headed to KL, tanpa tujuan dan matlamat. Gamble :)

We had fun touring around Jalan Tar & Sogo & Voir's Warehouse Sale - meet diff character of peps, buy cheap stuff and enjoying the scenery that i'll miss so much.

Then touring around Masjid Negara area lastly dinner kat Chop & Steak.

This is one of the reason i dont want to move out from here.

I want to be able go to Kl whenever i want. Jb is too far.

Anyway, sorrrrry Maliq sbb kau pissed off dgn aku. kau emo ak lembab. hahaha.

more : facebook

ps: camera Maliq canggih meletopzzz, and skill photography Maliq agak hebatzz :)

"If we don't change, we don't grow. If we don't grow, we aren't really living."

lilierra_gurl@hotmail.com : add lar kalau nk chat? pffftttttt!! :p

17days.

"Allah akan menggantikan yg lebih baik dari apa yg kita telah hilang"

for the time being, i just wanna be happy.

menghabiskan sisa-sisa hari sebagai official citizens of Subang.

if ayah was right about moving to Jb on 21st, then i have exactly hmm 17 days?

correct me if i'm wrong, u know how lousy i am with numbers. hee.

i want to start counting the days and write post about what i do evryday. sounds like a good idea?

hmphh kinda boring but we'll see about it.

and to Aliah, please don't write any post that'll make me cry anymore pleasee?

i promise i'll behave and Not send u sad mengade msgs nemore. heee.

and to Maliq, please dont be sooo kind to just say yes to whatever i plan.

terhutang budi byk sangat da neh. and ak takbole balas.

and to everybody else(u know who u are), jgn sedeh please.

okay padahal org tak sedeh kau je yg rase mcm tuh padahal kau yg over sedeh.

*********

i love 500 days of Summer so much. menangis 2 kali!

pleaseee pleaseee go and watch it.

now im on a mission to finish up G&G Ep1 & 2 before pindah sbb tuh dvd pija, i need to return it asap. heh.

"Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts."

if u're my friend, u would want to read this...

i'm writing this post with tears running down my cheek.

i'm like seriously sad right now.

when i heard the news just now i just laughed and smile,

i told ayah and ibu "tak kesah lar. Jb je. and sumeorg pon sibuk study. jarang jumpe."

but when i was told that we're moving out as soon as by end of this month, i was shocked.

i feel numb. i just dont know how to react.

my mouth was kept shut.

duduk diam-diam berfikir.

ayah dgn ibu mmg dah lame nak pindah.

but bila da pindah Jb nnt nak kawan dgn sape? nak lepak dengan sape?

rumah ijat jauh kat Skudai. tak dpt jumpe slalu jgk.

i'm so going to miss Subang. like fcuking hell kot.

Subang has been the place to grow up! to live! ever!

argh! this is sooo hard! this is too much to digest in just 1 night.

korang, kita akan rindhu korang.

rindhu lepak same2, kuar gi karaoke, kuar gi taman and kuar tanpa motif.

Ya Allah rindhunyeeee.

i have exactly 1 month left.

so kawan2, jom jumpeeeeee!!